eSnips Forums

A DISTANT LOVE AFFAIR

LETTER FRONM JESSIE TO CHRISTINE >>> A SYMPATHY
Dad
angel st. barrachiel <myangel168@yahoo.com>

ViewTo:
Daniel Major

Download All | cute mom.jpg (12KB); mom.JPG (741KB); mom 3th.jpg (4KB); mom tn 5.jpg (4KB); tnmom1.jpg (3KB)

Daniel Major
Hello Christine,

How are you?, The remains of your Dad? , Your Mom?, The whole family? I hope just like me you will be able to recover and accept his farewell to this world. Anyway, though we lose him, he has left a good memory to reminisce.

I am happy that though we never have meet you give me importance. I will never forget you and Daniel, that sometimes, somewhere , I met people who value people though they were not that close and were never been acquainted.

Thanks for the acceptance of my existence in your Dad's life for even a short time. My family and my friends were pleasing me. I am very open to them about Daniel and the relation.

Please take care of yourselves and extend my greetings to the whole family.

MY deepest sympathy,
His memory will remain in us, You through you kids that without your Mom and Dad, they won't exist, and me to the music and the notes he sent me. Would you be interested in some of our notes I am not ashamed to shoe them to you.

I know he won't leave us.
Love you,
Jessie

P.S. I have attached a few photo of me for you to see. Hope you won't forget..

5 Images | View Slideshow | Download Selected | Download All

A SAD DAY.. THE ACCEPTANCE

"angel st. barrachiel" <myangel168@yahoo.com> wrote:
My dear Christine,

This mail have read yesterday at 4:30 am my time. It was a dream that woke me up. A scene of flowers and candles and the songs your Dad gave me. I almost jumped out my bed, thinking it was sweetheart to have sent me, because the angels and the cherubs have listened to my requests to them to send my whisper of love to Daniel and my prayers for him and to the LORD to set him free from illness and pains.

My whole body went numbed, I cannot speak, all were tears and utters of whys and thanks and sorry to the ALMIGHTY. I cannot concentrate on my message for you, really I am so sorry..wish you understand me. All I did was to read our lines, our chats which I saved on my archives. Listened to his songs, look at his photos and when I got tired, I closed my eyes and got asleep.

This am, I am composed. How are you now? His body, where will he be laid, his final resting place? Is your Mom there? Take rest a while. You have to take care of yourselves for your kids and Len..Please convey my condolences to them, coming from my aching broken heart.

I would like to ask your permission regarding our love affair. I want it to be posted in my web sites, posting together his ID and pictures too. And at the same time, those that might have known him or have been his acquaintances in the internet will be advised. I will wait for your response.. And can we talk once on line so you can see me and feel me?

My all my love and sincerity,

Jessie

THE LETTER OF SORRY FROM CHRISTINE TO JESSIE
Daniel Major wrote:

Dear Jessie

I am sorry to have had to send you that kind of news. As with us here, I know your pain. My mother is with us right now and even though they have been apart for years, she is in shock. As to posting dad's music or pictures, he was a very quiet man and I don't think he would like that...........I know he would like you just to know he is in a better place and like with us all here, he will watch over you as that was his way.. Dad will be cremated and his ash given to the wind as he wished. In life my father was a free spirit and so he shall be in death. Thank you for your kind words. I think I speak for my father in saying that into each life an angel walks with us at times of need. As kids my father always told us one thing and I would like to pass it onto you

"when I'm not where you can see me, hold out your open hand in my direction, slowly close it, the warmth you will feel is that of my hand holding yours." I use to hold my hand out towards where he use to work and I still now as then..........feel his hand holding mine. Please, hold your hand out towards him, he will hold it for you to let you know he is with you.

I do not know when I shall next be on the computer as there are so many things to do but I will try to get back on soon.

Please take care of yourself............I do know he loved you Jessie, very much.

Christine & family

DEAR FOLLOWERS OF THIS SHORT STORY..

WE ARE IN THE NEAR END.. THANKS FOR FOLLOWING

A LETTER FROM A SAD AND BEREAVED HEART
2/19/08
Dearest Christine,

I am so happy for your kind consideration to me. Those words I have told by him in our last day on line. So I now realized it was the meaning of that. After you told me I did and as to the moment I am typing this, darling Chris, you know, he is here withe me and embracing my whole body.. I am so happy. I can feel the warmth from head to foot. I do believe he is here.. In his body to be cremated , can I ask a favor to you of including my picture and a note for Dad to carry with him all my pains and my sorrows too, and together with his ashes, be thrown to the wind. All my prayers for his peace and rest. God be with him..

Why I am not so lucky to see him? Be with him and serve him? To show my affection and concern the way he did in our very short time. The way he let me feel I am worth to be loved. He showed me his respect above all. I do believe to that he is happy now. I made a request to him to please be with me now, this time and this moment. And I can feel him till the moment.Let me be mine only for this time..I may be called a fool to any one to see me now, but it is true and that is what was happening now. I can feel him now, oh my God.. Again please whisper to him my love and affection. Many many thanks my dear for understanding me. Please do meet me even once before he will be cremated? Can you now? If not I have to go and pray for him.
.

Loving you all,

Jessie

THE LAST DAY ON EARTH
ViewTo:
angel st. barrachiel <myangel168@yahoo.com>

Download All | everythingschanged.mid (28KB); endoftheworld2.mid (48KB)
Download All | everythingschanged.mid (28KB); endoftheworld2.mid (48KB

The sun is just now coming up and the sky is so very blue today. Myabe God knows how dad loved the sunshine. This afternoon we all are going to take dad to ride the winds. Mom, my sisters and I along with our families will gather on the shores by the lake and set him free. Jessie, I hope I did the right thing for you............I put your picture in the casket with dad and as they closed the top down, I placed one red rose there for you. I don't like the chat lines but I will write you from time to time. What your friend said about lost love is so very true..........to be loved for a short time is so much better than never to have been loved. I know my father would like for you to life life to the fullest. You, as with my family and I will have him in our hearts. I have found one of his songs that you may like. I'm sorry they don't play like a CD does, you have to click on them to make them work. I'm going through his computer and will send some others later.

God Bless you and thank you for the love you gave my father.

Christine

Re: songs

Daniel Major

ViewTo:
angel st. barrachiel <myangel168@yahoo.com>
AFTER CREMATION

Download All | amysbackinaustin.mid (52KB); bbryhill.mid (27KB); Bellamy Brothers - Crossfire.mid (64KB); Bellamy Brothers - Forever ain't long enough.mid (36KB); bluebayou.mid (28KB); Bluevelv2.mid (36KB); cupid.mid (40KB); endoftheworld2.mid (48KB); fallpiec.mid (25KB); girlsnightout.mid (39KB); hellomarylou.mid (68KB); locomotion.mid (33KB); mividaloca.mid (46KB); sender.mid (34KB); Tonighttheheartachesonme.mid (55KB); untitled.mid (75KB)
Download All | amysbackinaustin.mid (52KB); bbryhill.mid (27KB); Bellamy Brothers - Crossfire.mid (64KB); Bellamy Brothers - Forever ain't long enough.mid (36KB); bluebayou.mid (28KB); Bluevelv2.mid (36KB); cupid.mid (40KB); endoftheworld2.mid (48KB); fallpiec.mid (25KB); girlsnightout.mid (39KB); hellomarylou.mid (68KB); locomotion.mid (33KB); mividaloca.mid (46KB); sender.mid (34KB); Tonighttheheartachesonme.mid (55KB); untitled.mid (75KB)
.
I was just about to head to bed when something told me to check my mail first. We took no pictures Jessie. All of dad's band members came for the service. I found some of the music he had been working on, they are what he called midi music and I remember he said the only way you can play them is by clicking on each one. I also have found two albums he and his band made. Those I will e-mail at a later date. About the ones I'm sending now. Dad did them all by himself, just dad, his computer and a tape machine, everything you here is dad.

I miss him so very much, my daughter Angel who is 10 is lost withoput him, she loved him so very deeply.

Well, I'm off to bed, I hope you like the music.

Take care please. I know he is with you as he is with us.

Christine

PS, the untitled one I think he was going to call distant hearts.

Dear friends three more letters to the final... I hope you are all still there till the end. thank you.. jessie /angel

MOMENTS OF BEREAVEMENTS

"angel st. barrachiel" <myangel168@yahoo.com> wrote:

Dearest Chris,

May days this wek were so long. At times I am feeling out of sight, and ouut f mind to all around me. My friends were feeling I'm acting weird, but not my closest and of course my family. A Canadian friend, who had been so close to me, always there in my lonely moments askd me to show him your Dad's picture, cause I feel he's always by my side becausei always think of him, told me it's not proper. His soul might not rest well,cause I'm always sad thinking of him. But you know, his kindness and thoughtfulness and sweetness to me made me like a real person, so that made me loved him that fast and dthat much. I should have send you our chats to prove to you that he's really somebody to love and be cared about but my computer was corrupted and reformated, tha those o my docunts were lost. Good thing I have some on my e-mails.

I'm staying in my room silently, and my family were affected too, so I decided to come on line again. I make something that you might not like, but I promis you it's only my closet 6 persons on net to show your dad's picture but it is really private that even you won't see. I send to them upon thei request for giving prayers for his soul and mine. I hope you won't get mad or feel bad about that.

How about you, the family and Angel? Hope you can bear the pain with acceptance for his peace too. I know he can see us all.

Please take care. God bless you all.

Love and care,

Jessie

Re: dad,update
FAREWELL

myangel168..from picesdave2003

farewell
you pampered me with so much warmth
that made this feeling grow day by day
you showed affection and tender care
i am a worthy soul you made me feel
but you leave me forever alone and lonely
and unto nothing i will be back again
my love, in my heart, my soul you will remain
the pages of time my turn but cant be gone
this feeling pure and emotion that last
it comes from my heart this token of love
in me it will remain till the end of time..
my love to you i say thank you and farewell..
this is a blog i wrote for your dad...A song of love to him.. i know he can see me now.. and look at the comment of a friend.. it eases a little...

Blog Comments
piscesdave2003…
• Offline IM
Blog Entry: Entry for February 22, 2008

Very nice Angel , but don't let the darkness of a love lost cause you to give up . Each love is a moment of personal growth and understanding of ones self .I believe we experience the loves in our life as a part of a search for that one special person whom God has made for us .Sometimes we past by them many times because we are distracted and looking the other way at what we thought was that one special love .Sometimes we loose that special love but I believe there is a purpose and reason that God has chosen to allow it to happen .By prayer I also believe we can come to know why and accept God's will .Its never easy but then if love were so easy then it wouldn't be the one thing we all seek so ferociously for .

Here are the words for a song about a heart broken by a love lost .I will post the video on your Multiply site .I hope you enjoy it .It is from the movie CRASH , if you can rent and watch it , you will be glad you did .

In the afternoon
she sits and waits for him to come
two swollen ankles count the time
Nervous fingers trace
across the cold linoleum
the kitchen wall receives her sigh
"Oh, can you hear me, Joe?"
she tries to call across the veil
Her lips are trembling now
can't hear his voice , can't feel him near
she says "Save me, save me
why don't you save me from the pain of losing you
Save me, save me
why don't you save me from this hell I'm going through"
The dinner table looks so strange without him sitting there
the bed is empty on his side
for forty years this house has held the fire of love they shared
but now the garden slowly dies
He said he'd never leave her alone to face the day
What kind of God is this that'll take him back
and make her stay
"Save me, save me
why don't you save me from the pain of losing you
save me, save me
why don't you save me from this hell I'm going through?
The kids try to come around,
try to make some time to see me,
I know, the busy lives they lead
keep them from these memories"
Saturday February 23, 2008 - 11:32pm (EST) Delete

this is the message of my Canadian friend Dave..

Hope this serves as an easer to our hearts...to you .. to Mom.. and the family all..like having now. I know my sadness cant be compared to yours, and i'm praying that you overcome too day by day, cause the truth about death is the older it gets the deeper it pains. I want you to keep on, take care,,,Dad loves you a lot , that he told me, though he loves you all.

love lots,
jessie

A REPLY TO THE HOURS OF BEREAVEMENT
Re: sadness
...
[Chat now] Daniel Major

ViewTo:
angel st. barrachiel <myangel168@yahoo.com>

01 Track 1.wma (5094KB)
Hello Jessie

I understand how you feel, it has been a shock for a lot of his friends. As for your acting weird..........well dad would say you don't have to be weird or nuts to live in this world......but it sure helps. We had two surprises this past weekend, one a call from one of the nurses who looked after my father when was had his first heart attack. She said even though she first looked after him was about 3 years ago, he seemed to have something special about him that she has never forgoten. He was in a lot of pain one day when her shift started and she said he needed an injection for the pain. Seems he agreed............but when she came back with it, he told her" if I have to bare my ass, you have to as well." that was dad for sure. She said he even played her a song before he was let out. As to the second surprise of the weekend, some of the people who dad played with over the years showed up, they had guitars, drums, violins and we had a great party in memory of dad. I was like you, down and sad. I started to cry and Jim, dad's best friend came over and whispered to me,"Chris, your dad would kick your tiny behind if he was here now. I know he wants you to remember him, but he also wants you to make the best of your life." He then told me dad had been working on a rather odd titled song before he died, "remember me". He then told me a little about it. Dad I believe knew he was not coming back home this time from the hospital..............the words of the song says........."miss me for a second but remember me for your life."

Your friend is right and even though you and my father didn't have that much time.........I think if you look within your heart, you know what I do.............he would not want you to be sad. He would want the best for you as he does for us here. Dad use to tell us kids, life doesn't stop for no one or anything, it goes on.

Jessie, I'm not sure where my life will go, but I know one thing for sure, where ever it goes, my father will be right there in my heart anytime I need him and as strange as it may sound............he now can be with us all anytime we need or want him there.

Another of dad's friends played a song he said dad had helped him start....I recorded it for us and you.

Please, remember dad, but also make the best you can of your life. Dad never was one that liked people to feel hurt............turn that sad upside down, as he would say. You and he didn't have long together, but I know you touched my father deeply. Please Jess, take each days and live it like there will be no tomorrow, and know he will always watch over you and share in your joys.

Chris&Len

THE SONGS FROM A DISTANT HEART

"angel st. barrachiel" <myangel168@yahoo.com> wrote:
Hello,

Good morning my dear. I thank you, you did it right. I have just went to your mail last night and was glad. The moment I was reading, a very unfamiliar fragrance was within the surrounding but it's only me to smell. I knew it was DAniel, he's here so I closed my hands like what he told me to do.

I was looking at the song, but i can't see. Though I have to look back, because I might have over-looked or under-looked at the letter. If you have pictures of the wake and the funeral, can you please send me too?

Hope we never forget each other..You've been busy I know, but you still managed to send me a letter. Thank you very much for the consideration. Take care please. Extend my regards to the family. Bye for now....God bless you.

Love and care,

Jessie

MY DEAR FRIENDS ,I HOPE YOU WERE TOUCHED BY MY DISTANT LOVE AFFAIR SHORT BUT LOVELY. THANK YOU TO ALL THAT WITNESSED.
WISH TO GET SOME COMMENTS FOR A BROKEN HEART.

> T H E E N D <

Hi,

I read the full story and this is really very heart touching. The person who had badly fall in can feel this.

Thanks

Dear Webmaster,

Thanks a lot for the response and the comment.

Just me,

Jessie / myangel168