]]> http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#21086 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#21086 GMT Part 4... A Distant Love Affair ( the story) Re: hello sweetheart ... [Chat now] Daniel Major AddTo: angel st. barrachiel Hello Sweetheart I'm fine darlin. Sorry I didn't get the time to tell you when my server shuts down it is not them but me. I have not resigned up for unlimited on line hours as yet but will do so this coming week. So please if we get cut off like that, please don't keep those beautiful and yes,sexy eyes open just waiting for me to get back on line. As to waiting to know each other longer, well that part is for now out of our hands. After my trip to Australia, I let my passport laps as I like you gave up on finding that special someone. Little did I know then what angel would come into my heart. I don't think you could make me feel better in some little way, I feel you would make me feel like a king in every way. As to my smoking, I understand your meaning when you mentioned it. And yes, my health will be better once I have stopped smoking. I made the mistake of starting when I was 14 and it is a hard habit to break. Yes, my father turns 90 in May of this year, two days before I turn 60 in fact, and yes, like my father, I like to drive, both kinds of driving. And like my father, the slower the drive the better I like it. hee hee I can see in your eyes you have the energy that I need in my life. I'm not so sure about you being 13 though, is that not a little to young for me. Oh don't get me wrong, I could more than keep up with you, maybe I might be even a little to much for a 13 year old like yourself. Now to answer your questions, I'm 5 foot 10 inches and depending on how much and how often I cook, weigh between 150 and 160 pounds. Between you and I you don't need to do a thing to change, I think we will fit together perfectly in every way. As to this actor you speak of, I hope you can find a picture of this guy. I have been told this before by some of the ladies there in the Philippines but as to looking like Elvis, oh please, I sure hope not. I'n my younger days I was told I could have passed for Buddy Holly, not sure you know of him, he was a rock and roll singer, one of his songs was Peggy Sue. I had the black rimmed glasses and the duck tailed hair and was about 110 pounds, suit and all, not birthday suit.lol. In my birthday suit I might have been 105 pounds. Anyway my love. I have some work to do tonight as my band and I have a dance to play for this weekend and we have some songs to fine tune. Until next we talk, hugs and kisses all over. See you son. Always yours. Daniel "angel st. barrachiel" wrote: Dearest my Honey, How are you, honey? I keep on waiting last night that you come back but I felt sleepy. I hope that you're in good health. You know I really wanted to see as soon as we could. I don't need too long knowing each other. I prefer that you can be with me here during your very cold season and be back there on the remaining good seasons. I hope that in some little ways I could make you feel better. When I greet you re smoking last talk, please don't feel bad, I just wanted you to be healthy, but I won't insist. You know what you feel more than anyone else. I just wanted to be with you for long time, years I mean.. For I wanted to live for as old as my mom now. If she's 82 now, I can still be with you for some 20 years more.Good enough, because I live with my husband for 28 years, but 13 years were already not good years for us. As I have mentioned earlier he was a juvenile diabetic, and st 36, he was very worse.And according to you, your Dad is still strong and can drive well at 90 something? Drive to a young wife? Lol, so you and I must really be made for each other this time of our lives. Ha ha ha ha.H drives well to both kinds of driving , huh? He he he he. Please tell me your height and weight. So that i may know if I have to do something so I won't look as a midget when I am near you. I was awaken this am by my dream. I dreamed that I am with a man near a stream, walking hand-fold to each other, And all of a sudden a bird land on my shoulder and I was very anxious why it fell on my shoulder. I was trying to let it flew away but the more it sticks to my shoulder, and i just let it stay there. I felt the crow to my shoulder a bit pain like being pinched so I was awaken. And wake up seeing my pc not turned off. Maybe a feeling of so sleepy that i thought I have turned it off. Lol am I getting old? Hope not. My darling needs a better energy from a 13 year old, I must not be 18. Honestly, honey, I feel always very light, means I am happy, like I am always on day dreaming. Imagining how you look like in real. You know your cam is not clear but I can see you as how I am imagining you. Do you know of a Filipina who became a Miss Universe or International by the name Ruffa Guttierez? A very much celebrated actress and personality, being the wife of Ylmas Vectas, a prince, I think a Turkish. You know her father look s like you. Or you look like her father, So that when my daughter-in-law saw you and so with the picture you send me, they called me Annabelle, the mom of the lady, because they called you Eddie, the Dad of Ruffa. He is an actor too. A very handsome actor and very talented. A superstar during his time a matinee idol. And now still as handsome as ever. And during his youngster, many compared him to Elvis Presley. I am trying to look for a picture and send to you. And the wife is a very beautiful lady too, but very mean, though she's very lovely. I could not therefore believe when you or others say i'm beautiful, but honestly I am flattered to hear that. Thanks honey. And darling i am almost beginning to memorize your 3 songs. I like them really. Very meaningful. I can feel the lyrics and if those were meant all for me, coming from you, I am like a teenager, quivering. A very old lady acting like a 16 years old lady. Thank you my honey. I like them. I felt dull, I can't write a piece for you. I am always tongue tied. It is really sweet to be loved by someone as romantic as you are. I love you my darling. Hope I can satisfy you. Bye for now. Getting sleepy again. Back to bed. Ha ha ha ha. Bye my sweetheart. I'll dream of you again. tsup! Love you. Sincerely yours, Sweet your angel Jessie to be continued...]]> http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#21331 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#21331 GMT >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Re: I love you ... angel st. barrachiel ... ViewTo: Daniel Major Cc: ... Download All | jay 4.jpg (3KB); mommy-3.jpg (4KB); tn-3.jpg (4KB); mom-5.jpg (4KB); mom-2.jpg (4KB) Download All | jay 4.jpg (3KB); mommy-3.jpg (4KB); tn-3.jpg (4KB); mom-5.jpg (4KB); mom-2.jpg (4KB) Dearest, How are you? Hope you're in good shape now. I am really worried about your health condition. As much as possible I want to be beside you now. But what can I do? We're too far from each other. I can't help you even with my touch therapy. I hope that we will be by each others side to have and to hold. I love the songs. It speaks well of your feeling. I can say it cause I do the same. My poems were just like the songs. I have also seen the pictures of the girls and the house. Is that were you live? Whose with you in the house? just like you i'll try to send some pictures of my kids and my home. But there is one thing i'd like to tell you. I am just a poor girl. No assets except my residential house and my kids. I am always on net writing poems, my only way to escape from my depression and loneliness. I am a Real Estate Licensed Broker, but since 3 years ago I got sick was confined and almost died. Depression caused by my work and the men I told you. I was advised by the doctor not to think much and avoid getting the situations to come in my way. As of now I am not working that hard like before, and was also advised to get some one to give color to my life so I go to net and so tired and want to give up until found you. I know you're different that when I met you, my heart beats fast and felt a different feeling that all of a sudden I lost my interest in everything I am doing in my web sites. And on the first day we have talked regarding us that was January 5, 2008, I considered it as our day but you leave me that fast and on the 2nd day I thought I have lost you.It is a proof that you're really some one very special among all I have met . I have told everything about us and what we are doing to my family and they were happy for me. I am living with my old mom 82 years old, my eldest child, a separated wife, named Jay, 32 years old with two sons, one living with us a 4 years old boy and the 14 year old is with her husband. My two sons were also with me but now they were both in the middle east as contract workers. One in Qatar, named Jing, a 32 years old bachelor, and the other one in Dubai, named Joy, 27, years old, married with two sons too, one 5 years old living with his in-laws and the youngest living with me a 3 years kid old. My 4th child a girl named Jett married with a 2 years old son living their own in a house built for them by her in-laws. We were all at home now as 4 adult females and 2 kids.So that when disaster came like typhoon, i am on panic and begun wishing I should have really somebody for me. I will attach here photos of me and my kids too. Loving you, Jessie to be continued....]]> http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#21527 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#21527 GMT >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Day 1.. Part 6 Daniel Major AddTo: myangel168@yahoo.com Daniel Has Sent You A Sandbox Greeting! Dear myangel168@yahoo.com, Daniel Major has sent you a Sandbox Greeting!: http://asandboxgreeting.com/as9.html Daniel also included this message: In my dreams I kissed an angel, I caressed her soft silky skin with the tips of my fingers. I laid my head to her breast and heard her heart sing a song of love. As we lay together, skin to skin I knew a new world and life would begin. As we made love in the dark of night, we sealed our love to one another in passion sweet...............ah, but only the dream of but a lonely man. >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Day 2.. Part 6 I love you Daniel Has Sent You A Sandbox Greeting! ... Daniel Major ... AddTo: myangel168@yahoo.com Daniel Has Sent You A Sandbox Greeting! Dear myangel168@yahoo.com, Daniel Major has sent you a Sandbox Greeting!: http://asandboxgreeting.com/pbthisrose.html Daniel also included this message: I touch your heart with love, my lips kiss yours with passion, my arms hold you in safety, my body I offer to you for play until our dying day. >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Day 3... part 6 for you ... angel st. barrachiel angel st. barrachiel ... ViewTo: Daniel Has Sent You A Sandbox Greeting! Daniel Maj... AddTo: myangel168@yahoo.com Daniel Has Sent You A Sandbox Greeting! Dear myangel168@yahoo.com, Daniel Major has sent you a Sandbox Greeting!: http://asandboxgreeting.com/ad-roseoflove.html Daniel also included this message: thinking of an angel in my life, without her by now I would be lost, with her I can and will go on. I Love You... to be continued...]]> http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#21528 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#21528 GMT ViewTo: To my dearest Daniel, Thanks for the wonderful roses you sent me. I remember a song during my childhood, "Paper Roses". I hope that it is real roses by now that I am receiving from my honey. It only means you're with me. I'll be waiting for that wonderful day, when all the birds in my surrounding will be humming sweet songs of love. Then everything I see is rainbow. Perhaps, I’ll be the happiest girl alive on that day. I'll pray to the Lord that our meeting will come true. To see you, to touch you and feel you, to share the love we both knew. It's God's miracle that on that last days of my stay in this world i found you. I hope that you're my destiny. And my love for you will be till the day I die. I don't want to spend more days missing you. Many things happen any minute, and I would like to take the opportunity of loving you. Our fate is in your hands my love. You hold the key to the reality of our dreams. We're not the youngsters anymore to know each other for long. We've been there and already know what to do and to have for a good relation. What things will bind us we also know you will be the deciding factor for the reality of our dreams. I am counting and holding on you. LOVE is the best and the number one factor to keep us tightly, close to each other and be with forever. I LOVE YOU MY HONEY. Loving you, Jessie . ]]> http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#21658 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#21658 GMT wrote: Ever dearest my Sweetheart, I am your angel watching you. I miss you a lot and hope to see you in good shape. My mind and soul is at peace now.At least I have contact with you, please if you can call me by the land line or by mobile, please do so. I know going on line will be hard for you. I love you my sweetheart.Your baby, Jessie angel .. your One Precious Love Re: Fwd: Re: sweetheart ..[Chat now] Daniel Major ViewTo: angel st. barrachiel Hello Jessie I'm sorry you where not told I was back in hospital. They had to remove two blood clots from near my heart. All seems to be ok now. To be honest, I thought you gave up on me. I don't know how many times I went on line leaving you a rose and no reply. I thought I had said something wrong and you had moved on. I checked my e-mails and no Jessie there. So after a week I just gave up. Now with that said, I also found out that yahoo mail has been acting up and that not all mails have been getting put through, I don't know why and no one can seem to answer that. For a while I have a live in nurse to give me a hand until they feel I can be back on my own. I will e-mail you for now but hope to soon be able to chat with you on line. ]]> http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#21660 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#21660 GMT Daniel Major wrote: Dear Jessie Thank you, this was beautiful, not as beautiful as you, but still beautiful. I have asked the nurse to come in at different times so I can have some time with you. These last few days I have been so very sick that I have been unable to sit long enough at the computer to get on line with you. So I hope you don't mind if for now I use e-mail to send you my love. We are getting so much snow at times you can't see across the street. I have been asking my doctor about travel and they say if I do as I'm told I should be able to fly this summer and that brings me to another question for you. If I come down this summer, do you know of a good hotel which I could stay at for a while, one near to you. We could go for long walks, maybe even find someplace where we could dance. I will write more later hon, until then please take care of you for me. Hugs and Kisses I send along with my love. Love Robert This pic was taken a few years ago when my wife and I where together. this is about half of our family "angel st. barrachiel" wrote: My dear Robert, Hope you're doing fine and in good feeling the moment. Whatever kind of communication I will love to hear from you. At least you did your effort. I would like to suggest to your physician to have his confirmation this time of the year here in the Philippines. The best season for me. Not too hot, not cold. though our cold season will be nothing to you. Yes there is a place here near me, a very nice place. It is in the web site. All you want you'll find there. And why should I stay away from you if you are here? Don't you want to be with me? I know you want, just asking. He he he he he... look at it on net. You can sing there, dance, drink and dine and of course be with me. There was also a pool were we can swim, a golf course were you can go. Here is the link: www.thunderbirdresorts.com I hope and wish you can escape that snow cold weather there. And can at the same time met and comfort you. Love you sweetheart, Jessie ]]> http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#21662 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#21662 GMT http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#21663 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#21663 GMT ViewTo: Dearest Honey, I see you seem to be surprised to what we have discussed. I see you as seeing me in a different me , than the other days. I hope you'll not up set to my reasons and if ever you find a different me,that you can't get along with, please my sweetheart please do tell me at once. I know you're in a modern world. You can do what you're telling me, coz you're a man. But to a woman though i am liberated in some ways or another, I don't want those things to happen to me. I would like my man to be proud of me, and feel at ease that her lady is that kind of girl that's for him alone. A one woman man. Don't let yourself to have hardships only because of trying to understand me. if we have different culture, for me it doesn't matter, but if it matters to you we can have a seat on that. All things can be discussed, and if it meet ways better. But if impossible one or I may give way. I love you darling. My angel is always watching you. Praying for you. And wishing to be with you some times, somewhere. Love and care, Jessie your angel ]]> http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#21825 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#21825 GMT http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#21827 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#21827 GMT http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#21834 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#21834 GMT ...ViewTo: Daniel Major Download All | mom-1r.jpg (1KB); 149.gif (175KB) Daniel Major wrote: Not much in this letter my love, your song for the day, one preisous love. my song to you. Each day I will send a letter tell you about myslef and my life until I found my angel. Each will have one picture as well of my home town. The one pic is of two of my grandchildren. I love you Daniel ]]> http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#21838 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#21838 GMT wrote: An angel listened to watch When you were lost I thought you go My heart cried out I think I am losing you But then I know you are not well I was worried, I was sad, I prayed to God To give us strength for this great love When you were lost I thought you’re sad I thought I’ve done or said something bad My heart shouted –out I think I am losing you But then I know you are not well I was worried, I was sad, I prayed to God To give us strength for this great love Give us the chance to meet to and see Feel each others warm flesh and blood The real face I like to touch and hold The real lips I would passionately kiss And the real you I want hug to be with. And just because I am a distant so far An angel to watch I am sending now Get well-soon, I pray my dearest one Your baby is here waiting for you to come. But your health, I fear for myself. That one day seeing me you can’t. Do you still care my dearest to come? Give us the chance to meet to see Please help me call all angels and cherubs To watch us, see us, and the greatest love That now unites our soul and our hearts. ]]> http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#21840 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#21840 GMT http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#21842 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#21842 GMT http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#21947 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#21947 GMT ViewTo: Daniel Major Hi, Thanks I was informed. He told me that before hand that if was not able to come on line with me or send no message at all, it means he is having some health problems. Yes, he told me everything about his health and worried for him especially when I saw him smoking. I mentioned about that to him just as a reminder. I feared now about his condition. Please convey to him my sincerest wish and prayers to the Lord to keep him in good health. Not for my sake, but for his sake. I wished to be with him someday and take care of him. But it seems time is not with us now. Still I am hoping he gets well soon. To you I am wishing your strength and more power to look and take care of both your father and your family. Give my regards to Daniel and your family. Please tell Daniel he lives in me by the songs he sent me. Goodbye, may the good Lord grant us bountiful mercy and blessings. Yours truly, Jessie P.S. Hope you have seen me in my pictures.. ________________________________________ ]]> http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#21948 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#21948 GMT >> GETTING AQUAINTED dad... [Chat now]Daniel Major ViewTo: Hello Jessie Hope you are well. We received lots of snow this past week. Dad would have loved to be up north again when it is like this. He used to love driving through it, but then he is not as young now and the cold gets to him. Our son was home for weekend, he is disabled and we had to put him in a group home 2 years ago. At 15 he is a big boy and very hard to handle so we and the doctors thought this was best for him in the long run. I have four kids, two boys and two girls. Allie is 18, Gordon is 15, Jamie is 13 and Angel is 12, she is grampa's suck.lol. I don't know much about you, but you must have something special as we tried to hook dad up a while ago with a lady friend of ours and it was a no go. All dad said about her was she had legs if nothing else. He is very picky, lol. When he told me about you I almost fell over as I didn't think he was even looking. Most times he is making jewelery or out with his band. He use to race cars but gave that up after his first heart attack as he says he lost his edge for it. Up until last summer he still played golf, he is a lifetime member of Oakwood here. Len just came in so I better tend to him, maybe even feed him, if you know what I mean.. Please take care of yourself. Christine ]]> http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22096 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22096 GMT wrote: Dearest Christine, Hello dear, how are you and Dad? For a little long i have not received any news from my dearest sweetheart. I am terribly worried and sad. I can't help but cry. When I found him, my world turned rainbow color, my days were filled with his songs. My heart was filled with loneliness. I don't really know what was his health about now. Please let me know darling/ I'll be waiting for the response. Please get -in- touched. I love him and missed him now so much. I want to reach him and comfort him but how. If you can afford, please let him come to me and i will take care of him here in my home. Here are my contact numbers 289-3922 -tel. and +639162956006 -- mobile my address: Ms. Josefina B. Cadsawan #168 Bernardo Compound Tagpos Binangonan, Rizal Philippines Please don't deprive my sweetheart's physical condition to me. I am suffering too much. Thanks,]]> http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22125 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22125 GMT ... Cc: Dear Jessie Please forgive my not informing you until now. Things have just not been well here and my mind has been all over the place. Dad had a very bad set back, his heart acting up again on him. They had to go in and clean clots from around his heart. Even with the way they do things these days, his recovery has been slow. He is back home but has a nurse with him to help look after him for now. I know he will be upset with me as I was to let you know this a while ago. I just got my computer back from the shops and I thought I better check mails right away. Your e-mail woke me up that I had not passed this information on to you. I don't think dad is back on chat as yet, but I'm sure he will answer any e-mails. Once again, sorry for the delay. Chris ]]> http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22127 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22127 GMT http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22130 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22130 GMT ViewTo: Daniel Major Ever dearest Christine, Right now my eyes are in tears. I can't move, my head seem blank and all my hair strands were standing of the situation. I want to cry out loud to release my breathing. My heart feels like to stop beating. I am asking GOD why this has to happen to us. Both of us meet in a time when we were on our last day of looking for someone. Praying to HIM, asking to grant our request to have true person to love, to care and be with the last moment of our life. Our request was granted on that day..but, so sad, HE just gave us a very short time. As you said, I will do my best that GOD reward my dear DANIEL pardon, forgiveness of his sins and grant him a painless feeling. Set him free from that sufferings by all means. Grant him peace and worry free mind and soul. It's so sad for all of you to lose him, so more than I, cause we were not given a chance to meet in real and prove to each other and to the world that we can get along. That we can be happy and forget our past. But then, let's ACCEPT that sad fact. Let's offer him to the LORD with all our hearts. Oh, Christine if you can only see me now, if you can only feel my heart, how i am in agony. Please kiss him for me..Please whisper to his ears that I love him so much and cared for him. If only I can afford to fly there now to be with him in this critical moment of his life, I should have done earlier. Oh my GODDDDDDDDDD! Have mercy, please???? I am very thankful that you bet-in-touch. I will go to church now and pray for his recovery to whatever HE has to grant my sweetheart..Favor please? i have my mobile and my land line.. Please inform me of any changes. Pleaseeeeee, dear Christine? And sorry for my kind of letter. That instead of keeping you strong and composed, I feel like this. I hope you understand me....God I love him Christine, ohhh, i am really so sorry about. God bless all of us, especially my LOVE.. Yours, Jessie ]]> http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22136 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22136 GMT > Indefinite Condition dad,update ... [Chat now] Daniel Major ... ViewTo: Jessie Jessie I'm sorry, there is nothing more I can tell you right now. I phoned down to see what is going on with dad and was told that for now he is resting. The nurse I spoke with did say it is not his heart. They have him very drugged up. It seems he became hard to control on the flight to the hospital and they pumped him full of morphine. I will be catching the train at 6am tomorrow and head down to be with dad. Len and I where talking and he said dad had been acting funny in as far as his giving Angel his sterio and had asked Len if he would like dad's car. Dad spent a lot of time and money doing his car up just the way he wanted it. Dad loves that car as it is a 1957 dodge custom that he built from the ground up. Anyway, I better get to bed as we will have to be up at 5am so I can make the train. I will find a cafe' and e-mail you of any changes. Chris]]> http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22137 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22137 GMT ViewTo: Daniel Major Dear Christine, How were things going there sweetheart? Can I be sent even a very short info? Tomorrow is hearts day, I am hoping all our hearts be steadfast and all at peace and calm, and subtle and God, Christine don't know what to say more baby, I'm suffering you know? I love Daniel that it hurts me to know he's there and I am useless, i'm ...oh my God...HAPPY VALENTINES anyway.. take care to all.. I don't want you be sick too, come what may, please advice me. Thanks... love you.. Did you kiss Daniel for me? Did you whisper in his ears I love him? Thanks my dear. Bye and praying here. this is the heart of my sweetheart.. God I love him so much! these are your hearts, you and Len and this is my heart crying out for love, loneliness, sadness and despair.. Love and care, Jessie note: (images missing)]]> http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22263 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22263 GMT Dear Jessie I did as you asked for you. But I'm so very sorry to have to tell you..........we lost dad Sunday morning. He had a massive heart attack on Friday and they seemed to have acted in time to bring him back. Then Sunday about 4am he took another one and the doctor held little hope, about 7am he past away. I for one am so lost right now. I'm sorry to have to have told you and I'm so sorry I didn't get back to you sooner. Chris ]]> http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22264 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22264 GMT >> A SYMPATHY Dad angel st. barrachiel ViewTo: Daniel Major Download All | cute mom.jpg (12KB); mom.JPG (741KB); mom 3th.jpg (4KB); mom tn 5.jpg (4KB); tnmom1.jpg (3KB) Daniel Major Hello Christine, How are you?, The remains of your Dad? , Your Mom?, The whole family? I hope just like me you will be able to recover and accept his farewell to this world. Anyway, though we lose him, he has left a good memory to reminisce. I am happy that though we never have meet you give me importance. I will never forget you and Daniel, that sometimes, somewhere , I met people who value people though they were not that close and were never been acquainted. Thanks for the acceptance of my existence in your Dad's life for even a short time. My family and my friends were pleasing me. I am very open to them about Daniel and the relation. Please take care of yourselves and extend my greetings to the whole family. MY deepest sympathy, His memory will remain in us, You through you kids that without your Mom and Dad, they won't exist, and me to the music and the notes he sent me. Would you be interested in some of our notes I am not ashamed to shoe them to you. I know he won't leave us. Love you, Jessie P.S. I have attached a few photo of me for you to see. Hope you won't forget.. 5 Images | View Slideshow | Download Selected | Download All ]]> http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22267 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22267 GMT wrote: My dear Christine, This mail have read yesterday at 4:30 am my time. It was a dream that woke me up. A scene of flowers and candles and the songs your Dad gave me. I almost jumped out my bed, thinking it was sweetheart to have sent me, because the angels and the cherubs have listened to my requests to them to send my whisper of love to Daniel and my prayers for him and to the LORD to set him free from illness and pains. My whole body went numbed, I cannot speak, all were tears and utters of whys and thanks and sorry to the ALMIGHTY. I cannot concentrate on my message for you, really I am so sorry..wish you understand me. All I did was to read our lines, our chats which I saved on my archives. Listened to his songs, look at his photos and when I got tired, I closed my eyes and got asleep. This am, I am composed. How are you now? His body, where will he be laid, his final resting place? Is your Mom there? Take rest a while. You have to take care of yourselves for your kids and Len..Please convey my condolences to them, coming from my aching broken heart. I would like to ask your permission regarding our love affair. I want it to be posted in my web sites, posting together his ID and pictures too. And at the same time, those that might have known him or have been his acquaintances in the internet will be advised. I will wait for your response.. And can we talk once on line so you can see me and feel me? My all my love and sincerity, Jessie ]]> http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22297 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22297 GMT http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22299 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22299 GMT http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22300 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22300 GMT http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22359 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22359 GMT Download All | everythingschanged.mid (28KB); endoftheworld2.mid (48KB) Download All | everythingschanged.mid (28KB); endoftheworld2.mid (48KB The sun is just now coming up and the sky is so very blue today. Myabe God knows how dad loved the sunshine. This afternoon we all are going to take dad to ride the winds. Mom, my sisters and I along with our families will gather on the shores by the lake and set him free. Jessie, I hope I did the right thing for you............I put your picture in the casket with dad and as they closed the top down, I placed one red rose there for you. I don't like the chat lines but I will write you from time to time. What your friend said about lost love is so very true..........to be loved for a short time is so much better than never to have been loved. I know my father would like for you to life life to the fullest. You, as with my family and I will have him in our hearts. I have found one of his songs that you may like. I'm sorry they don't play like a CD does, you have to click on them to make them work. I'm going through his computer and will send some others later. God Bless you and thank you for the love you gave my father. 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I was just about to head to bed when something told me to check my mail first. We took no pictures Jessie. All of dad's band members came for the service. I found some of the music he had been working on, they are what he called midi music and I remember he said the only way you can play them is by clicking on each one. I also have found two albums he and his band made. Those I will e-mail at a later date. About the ones I'm sending now. Dad did them all by himself, just dad, his computer and a tape machine, everything you here is dad. I miss him so very much, my daughter Angel who is 10 is lost withoput him, she loved him so very deeply. Well, I'm off to bed, I hope you like the music. Take care please. I know he is with you as he is with us. Christine PS, the untitled one I think he was going to call distant hearts.]]> http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22441 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22441 GMT http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22442 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22442 GMT wrote: Dearest Chris, May days this wek were so long. At times I am feeling out of sight, and ouut f mind to all around me. My friends were feeling I'm acting weird, but not my closest and of course my family. A Canadian friend, who had been so close to me, always there in my lonely moments askd me to show him your Dad's picture, cause I feel he's always by my side becausei always think of him, told me it's not proper. His soul might not rest well,cause I'm always sad thinking of him. But you know, his kindness and thoughtfulness and sweetness to me made me like a real person, so that made me loved him that fast and dthat much. I should have send you our chats to prove to you that he's really somebody to love and be cared about but my computer was corrupted and reformated, tha those o my docunts were lost. Good thing I have some on my e-mails. I'm staying in my room silently, and my family were affected too, so I decided to come on line again. I make something that you might not like, but I promis you it's only my closet 6 persons on net to show your dad's picture but it is really private that even you won't see. I send to them upon thei request for giving prayers for his soul and mine. I hope you won't get mad or feel bad about that. How about you, the family and Angel? Hope you can bear the pain with acceptance for his peace too. I know he can see us all. Please take care. God bless you all. Love and care, Jessie ]]> http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22470 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22470 GMT http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22471 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22471 GMT 01 Track 1.wma (5094KB) Hello Jessie I understand how you feel, it has been a shock for a lot of his friends. As for your acting weird..........well dad would say you don't have to be weird or nuts to live in this world......but it sure helps. We had two surprises this past weekend, one a call from one of the nurses who looked after my father when was had his first heart attack. She said even though she first looked after him was about 3 years ago, he seemed to have something special about him that she has never forgoten. He was in a lot of pain one day when her shift started and she said he needed an injection for the pain. Seems he agreed............but when she came back with it, he told her" if I have to bare my ass, you have to as well." that was dad for sure. She said he even played her a song before he was let out. As to the second surprise of the weekend, some of the people who dad played with over the years showed up, they had guitars, drums, violins and we had a great party in memory of dad. I was like you, down and sad. I started to cry and Jim, dad's best friend came over and whispered to me,"Chris, your dad would kick your tiny behind if he was here now. I know he wants you to remember him, but he also wants you to make the best of your life." He then told me dad had been working on a rather odd titled song before he died, "remember me". He then told me a little about it. Dad I believe knew he was not coming back home this time from the hospital..............the words of the song says........."miss me for a second but remember me for your life." Your friend is right and even though you and my father didn't have that much time.........I think if you look within your heart, you know what I do.............he would not want you to be sad. He would want the best for you as he does for us here. Dad use to tell us kids, life doesn't stop for no one or anything, it goes on. Jessie, I'm not sure where my life will go, but I know one thing for sure, where ever it goes, my father will be right there in my heart anytime I need him and as strange as it may sound............he now can be with us all anytime we need or want him there. Another of dad's friends played a song he said dad had helped him start....I recorded it for us and you. Please, remember dad, but also make the best you can of your life. Dad never was one that liked people to feel hurt............turn that sad upside down, as he would say. You and he didn't have long together, but I know you touched my father deeply. Please Jess, take each days and live it like there will be no tomorrow, and know he will always watch over you and share in your joys. Chris&Len ]]> http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22533 http://forum.esnips.com/posts/list/4408.page#22533 GMT wrote: Hello, Good morning my dear. I thank you, you did it right. I have just went to your mail last night and was glad. The moment I was reading, a very unfamiliar fragrance was within the surrounding but it's only me to smell. I knew it was DAniel, he's here so I closed my hands like what he told me to do. I was looking at the song, but i can't see. Though I have to look back, because I might have over-looked or under-looked at the letter. If you have pictures of the wake and the funeral, can you please send me too? Hope we never forget each other..You've been busy I know, but you still managed to send me a letter. Thank you very much for the consideration. Take care please. Extend my regards to the family. Bye for now....God bless you. 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